Louis Tomlinson has been on an emotional roller coaster since One Direction went on hiatus. One wonderful spot of joy was welcoming his son, Freddie, who is now four. Unfortunately, he lost both his mother and his sister in two years’ time. Louis’ mother, Johannah Deakin, lost her battle with leukemia in 2016. Louis knew it was coming but that didn’t make it any easier to process. Johannah was only 43 years old. Last March, Louis’ stepsister, Félicité, died after an accidental overdose. She was 18. The two deaths of people so close to him in such a short amount of time caused Louis to hit “rock bottom.”
Louis Tomlinson is opening up about the “dark times” in his life.
In a new interview with The Guardian, the One Direction alum spoke about losing his sister, Félicité, in March, just over two years after their mother Johannah Deakin died of leukemia in December 2016.
“That whole dark side I’ve gone through, it sounds stupid to say, but it gives me strength everywhere else in my life because that’s the darkest s— that I’m going to have to deal with,” Tomlinson, 27, told the newspaper. “So it makes everything else, not feel easier and not less important, but, in the grand scheme of things, you see things for what they are, I suppose.”
The singer also said his fans have been an important support system as he mourns.
“I’m sure every artist says this, but I do believe it,” he said. “We’ve been through some dark times together and those things I’ve been through, they carry a weight, emotionally, on the fans as well. And I felt their love and support. I remember really clearly when I lost my mum, that support was mad.”“I’ve been to rock bottom and I feel like, whatever my career’s going to throw in front of me, it’s going to be nothing as big or as emotionally heavy as that,” he continued. “So, weirdly, I’ve turned something that’s really dark into something that empowers me, makes me stronger.”
“I don’t want people to feel sorry for me,” Tomlinson added. “That’s not how I feel for myself. Somehow it fuels me.”
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This poor guy. It’s a lot to deal with in such a short amount of time. Louis is estranged from his biological father. His stepdad, Mark Tomlinson, whose name Louis took on, and his mom divorced just before Louis hit it big. Fortunately, he has three other step-sisters, although one is a product of his estranged father’s second marriage so I don’t know how close they are. I’ll bet Louis did bottom out dealing with this, it’s like a one-two punch. I’m impressed by his resilience. I understand what he’s saying, once you survive the worst, you realize it does get easier. Not better, but easier, so you feel like you can survive anything. It’s also a really healthy outlook on his career. So often we freak out that if our career takes a hit, it’s the end of the world. But when someone close dies, it becomes a lot more obvious where your emotional investment is. Jobs are easier to come by than family members to whom you were close.
I like that he’s opening up and letting his fans know 1) how much they helped him and 2) that he’s going to be okay. I hope he continues to gain strength from his experiences. At least then, something good will have come from tragedy.
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