Ashley Graham takes a selfie while breastfeeding her five-month-old twin sons Roman and Malachi: ‘Tired but we’re here’
Ashley Graham shared a photo of herself simultaneously nursing her five-month-old twins boys Roman and Malachi, whom she welcomed in January.
As she breastfed her two little boys, the 34-year-old supermodel could be seen sitting down on a grey chair while snapping a makeup-free selfie.
‘Tired. but we’re here,’ she captioned the picture, which showed her resting her head on her hand as she sported her dark locks in a messy bun.
Breastfeeding: Ashley Graham shared a photo of herself simultaneously nursing her five-month-old twins boys Roman and Malachi, who she welcomed in January
In the snap, she could be seen wearing a black tank, pulled up to feed her, a gold chain necklace and matching earrings.
Her post comes less than a month after she revealed that she almost died from a horrific hemorrhage while giving birth to her twins.
In an incredibly candid essay for Glamour that their birth was anything but simple after going into labor while on the toilet at 3:45 a.m.
Terrifying: Her post comes less than a month after she revealed that she almost died from a horrific hemorrhage while giving birth to her twins
Bundles of joy: Graham, 34, welcomed her twins with her husband, Justin Ervin, 35, back in January. They are pictured together in November
Shortly after the twins arrived, she suddenly began bleeding and quickly lost consciousness, forcing her birthing team to spring to action in a desperate attempt to save her life.
The horrifying incident left her bed ridden for four days and unable to walk for a week.
She added that the aftermath of nearly losing her life was ‘deeply overwhelming,’ and that the whole experience changed her relationship with her body once and for all, stripping her of the confidence and positivity that launched her career as the world’s first plus-size supermodel.
Terrifying: But according to the model, after successfully delivering the babies at home, she suddenly began bleeding profusely and lost consciousness. She is pictured with her twins
‘The night I gave birth to the twins, I hemorrhaged,’ she recalled.
‘It was 2 a.m. when my contractions started. At 3:45 a.m. I went to the toilet thinking I needed the bathroom, and Malachi came out just as my doula was arriving, in time to bring him into the world.’
Roman was born two hours and seven minutes later, and at first, Graham said she and her husband – who also share son Isaac, two – as well as her ‘skilled’ and ‘intelligent’ team of doctors ‘were all celebrating.’
‘We couldn’t believe that my labor lasted just three and a half hours, and I was feeling so incredibly grateful to this team of skilled, intelligent and trained professionals around me, who were there for me when I had Isaac, and were now with me again for the twins,’ she gushed.
However, their excitement soon turned to fear, when Graham suddenly collapsed.
She added that the aftermath of nearly losing her life was ‘deeply overwhelming,’ and that the whole experience changed her relationship with her body. She is pictured after giving birth
‘The next thing you know, I looked at my midwife and I said, “I don’t feel good. I think I need to lay down,” and I blacked out,’ she recalled.
‘All I can remember is feeling a light touch on my cheek, which I found out later was actually somebody smacking the crap out of my cheek, someone holding my hand, my husband Justin in my ear, praying, and someone jabbing me with a needle in my arm.
‘And I remember seeing darkness and what seemed like stars. When I finally came to, I looked around and I saw everybody.
‘They just kept saying to me, “You’re fine. You’re fine. You’re fine.” They didn’t want to tell me, right then, that I’d lost liters of blood.
‘They didn’t want to tell me that one of the midwives had to flip me over, press her finger down right above my vagina bone to try and stop the bleeding.
‘And they didn’t want to tell me that the vein in my arm kept collapsing and they couldn’t get the needle in for the Pitocin, so they’d had to put it in my hand.
Road to recovery: Graham said she was a ‘wreck’ after recovering from the incident, and ‘didn’t feel like herself physically or emotionally.’ She is pictured with one of the twins
‘But even though they didn’t want to go into the details at that moment, I looked around the room, saw blood literally everywhere, and let out this deep, visceral cry -an emotional release from the chaos I had just experienced.’
Graham explained that she couldn’t even sit up – let alone walk – so the doctors carried her over to her bed on a sheet.
She stayed in bed for four days straight, and didn’t leave her house for ‘nearly two months.’
‘The midwives asked me if I could stand up and walk to bed. I couldn’t. I couldn’t sit up, or even crawl,’ she continued.
‘So they got a twin-size bed sheet, rolled me onto it, and slid me down my hall into my guest room, where I had a trundle bed that I could barely roll onto.
Opening up: The TV presenter also revealed that she had a miscarriage in February 2021, one year after the birth of her first son, Isaac, now two. She is pictured with her three sons
‘Thank goodness the twins were fine, while I lay on that bed for four straight days. I couldn’t walk for a week. And I didn’t leave my house for nearly two months.’
However, the mom-of-three called it a period filled with ‘joy, learning and laughter, acceptance, and recovery.’
She said: ‘It was a period of time filled with the joy of being with my husband and my three sons, the rhythm of our new life, learning and laughter, acceptance and recovery.’
Despite feeling thankful that she and her twins were OK, the mom admitted that she soon began to struggle with accepting her body.
She admitted: ‘Like so many women, what I went through with childbirth has reshaped my relationship with my body – and I say this knowing that I am the person who has been shouting from the rooftops to you all, “Love the skin you’re in.”
‘It was devastating; it felt like one of the biggest losses I had ever had in my life to date,’ she said. ‘And yet the world expects us to move on and handle our grief with grace’
‘Yet for me, the births of all my three children threw a lot of that out of the window.’
Graham said she was a ‘wreck’ after recovering from the incident, and ‘didn’t feel like herself physically or emotionally.’
She added that she had planned to go back to work eight weeks after giving birth, but soon realized that would not be the case.
‘I couldn’t walk properly for a long time, let alone exercise. I would shake, I didn’t feel like myself physically or emotionally,’ she wrote.
When she got pregnant with the twins, she said it was ‘incredible, overwhelming, and joyous.’ However, she said it was ‘pretty much the end of her body as she knew it’
‘I had planned to be back at work after eight weeks, but I was a wreck, and when I saw myself in the mirror, I still felt like I looked pregnant.
‘I work in an industry that expects me to return to work in a body that has “snapped back” – a pressure that no woman, in any industry, deserves to feel.
‘I have always fought against unfair and unrealistic standards and yet, if I am being completely honest, here I was, expecting myself to snap back. And fast,’ she concluded.
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