Louise Thompson puts on a brave face on walk with son Leo and fiancé Ryan Libbey as she details having to talk herself out of ‘I’m going to die mentality’ after traumatic labour
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New mum Louise Thompson headed out with her son Leo Hunter and fiancé Ryan Libbey on Saturday, in what she called a small ‘win’ in her post labour recovery journey.
The former Made In Chelsea star, 31, gave birth to her first child back in November and spent five weeks in hospital suffering from complications after nearly dying during labour.
The pair looked every inch the doting parents as they strolled through Chelsea, with Ryan, also 31, picking up his son at one point to coo and comfort him.
Brave: New mum Louise Thompson headed out with her son Leo Hunter and fiancé Ryan Libbey on Saturday, in what she called a small ‘win’ in her post labour recovery journey
Louise has been taking it day by day after developing Post Traumatic Stress Disorder following her near death experience.
And it was a poignant moment for the star to be able to head out with her son, whom she pushed in a pram, after being in intensive care for the first five weeks of his life.
A smiling Louise wrapped up for the weather in a suede tan coat, a scarf and a beanie and put on a brave face after revealing she cried 20 times last week.
Cute: The pair looked every inch the doting parents as they strolled through Chelsea, with Ryan, also 31, picking up his son at one point to coo and comfort him
Strong: The former Made In Chelsea star, 31, gave birth to her first child back in November and spent five weeks in hospital suffering from complications after nearly dying during labour
Ryan, who cared for Leo while Louise was in hospital, doted on his son who was wrapped up in a grey pramsuit.
The personal trainer carried him at one point to soothe him before putting him back in the pram for a nap.
Over the weekend, Louise candidly shared her progress with Post Traumatic Stress Disorder.
Journey: Louise has been taking it day by day after developing Post Traumatic Stress Disorder following her near death experience
Louise explained how her ‘road to recovery won’t be linear’ as she noted the highs and lows over the past few days.
In her latest post, she admitted while she is still struggling with fears she is going to die, she has managed some of her daily tasks.
She wrote alongside a photograph with son Leo in a pram as she stood by a flower stall that she has thousands of thoughts each day.
Motherhood: And it was a poignant moment for the star to be able to head out with her son, whom she pushed in a pram, after being in intensive care for the first five weeks of his life
Keeping warm: A smiling Louise wrapped up for the weather in a suede tan coat, a scarf and a beanie
Louise penned: ‘60,000 thoughts passing through my head each day. If I can try and get 30,001 of them to be non anxious thoughts then I am sort of winning. Honestly I’ve never known anxiety like it. It feels inexplicable. But it’s not, and I’m starting to make sense of it.
‘I want to say a big thank you to everyone for the outpouring of love, your kind words, your cards, flowers, gifts and your super supportive/constructive messages… most of all I want to thank you for being so patient, sorry if I’m being slow.
Doting dad: Ryan, who cared for Leo while Louise was in hospital, doted on his son who was wrapped up in a grey pramsuit
Sad: On December 23, Louise admitted she ‘never imagined that so many bad things could happen to me, but to dance with death twice brings a whole new view of the world’
‘The days are moving strangely quickly and I can’t seem to get much done. Even thinking about that sends me into a bit of a panic. I don’t know whether I want to speed up the healing, or slow down the precious moments.’
She shared her journey is not ‘linear’ and there will be ups and downs. Louise wrote: ‘Unfortunately this week hasn’t been as easy as last week, but like any ‘transformation’ i know it won’t be linear, instead my road to recovery will take the form of a jagged line… much like my fitness transformation all those years ago.’
Louise then wrote about the positives she experienced this week, including that she had a meal with her son and partner Ryan.
‘Some positives: Because every day I write down some positives (yes I’ve been journaling like mad), but I think I still find talking helps me more.
Fighter: The reality star put on a brave face, after revealing she cried 20 times last week
Candid: After the birth, Louise has been detailing her mental health struggles since then, and has shared that she has been suffering with Post Traumatic Stress Disorder
‘1. This week I managed to talk myself out of the ‘I’m going to die’ mentality a few times without medical help. Having more awareness of what is going on in my head massively helps to calm me down. I also tell myself that I can review my physical symptoms in 24 hours which is a good habit to practise because by the time the 24 hour period is up I’ll have survived.
‘2. I managed to attend an appointment on my own. Woooo. 3. Ryan and I went out for some food with baby Leo. 4. We went for a long(ish) walk in the park with the dogs. 5. My scar is finally looking healed up enough that I might even consider having a bath. Yikes ! Is that allowed?
‘6. My sickness has subsided and I’ve finally regained a bit of an appetite so I can try and maintain my weight. 7. I’ve stopped googling when I feel triggered (willpower 101) 8. I’ve stopped measuring my temperature and blood pressure and heart rate and anything else that I can track 9. I got 8 hours of sleep last night and even had some dreams (exceptionally weird ones as Ptsd can drudge up strange things from the past)’
Sweet: The personal trainer carried him at one point to soothe him before putting him back in the pram for a nap
As well as the shot of Louise, the reality star shared a photo of Ryan about to tuck into some tasty looking food at the restaurant Bibendum.
Louise spent five weeks in hospital following ‘serious complications’ after labour and has previously spoken about how her ‘rock’ Ryan was by her side throughout.
Louise took to Instagram last week to thank him for everything he has done, including ‘calling ambulances, waiting outside operating theatres and sleeping on hard hospital floors’.
In the post the television personality told how he it had been the ‘hardest year of her life’ but that he helped her recover when they returned home.
Hero: Louise spent five weeks in hospital following ‘serious complications’ after labour and has previously spoken about how her ‘rock’ Ryan was by her side throughout
She explained how he ‘showered her, changed sanitary towels, injected her’ and brought her little one to see her in hospital so they could bond.
Louise signed off by saying she ‘commended’ Ryan who had ‘witnessed things no partner should ever have to’, before calling him her ‘rock’.
She previously shared the first picture of her adorable son on her page and admitted ‘it wasn’t easy’ to explain what has happened to her in recent weeks.
The reality star had announced that she was taking a break from social media on November 14, ahead of the birth, but concerned fans after remaining silent in the following weeks.
Strong: Louise penned in the caption: ‘60,000 thoughts passing through my head each day. If I can try and get 30,001 of them to be non anxious thoughts then I am sort of winning’
On December 23, in a lengthy post, Louise admitted that she ‘never imagined that so many bad things could happen to me, but to dance with death twice brings a whole new view of the world – a stark reminder of how short and sacred life really is.’
While she confessed that she was ‘in a bit of a strange place mentally and physically,’ the new mum said that she was finally at a place where she could ‘see a future where I get to live peacefully on this earth with my son.’
If you have been affected by anything in this story please contact Birth Trauma Association at birthtraumaassociation.org.uk
Shocking: The reality star had announced that she was taking a break from social media on November 14, ahead of the birth, but concerned fans after remaining silent
What is PTSD?
Symptoms
Someone with PTSD often relives the traumatic event through nightmares and flashbacks, and may experience feelings of isolation, irritability and guilt.
They may also have problems sleeping, such as insomnia, and find concentrating difficult.
These symptoms are often severe and persistent enough to have a significant impact on the person’s day-to-day life.
Causes
Any situation that a person finds traumatic can cause PTSD.
These can include:
PTSD can develop immediately after someone experiences a disturbing event, or it can occur weeks, months or even years later.
PTSD is estimated to affect about 1 in every 3 people who have a traumatic experience, but it’s not clear exactly why some people develop the condition and others do not.
Source: NHS
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